Wearing: Lila Back Bow Dress in Turquoise thanks to Pemba Boutique; Vans Authentic Lo-Pro in White; Kushla Wrap Bracelet thanks to Kushla
Always in heart-recovery mode, I decided to put myself in over-exercise mode. With the gym available to me 24/7 and just down the road, I head down to work out almost every day. Its a good distraction and I get to hang out with the 'Bros' that don't judge. Even though I am newly single and I am sometimes hurting, my need for independence and my struggle to stay on my course to happiness happens to be stronger. So, I realised Gym makes me happy, so I will keep that up rather than sit around and cry. Though there are days I feel buckets of guilt. It comes about when I realise my strength and the ease I feel at choosing to be alone. A very confusing feeling.
I've accepted that I will have easy days and hard days as I go through this. The guilt comes at full force when I find I'm asking myself 'When is the period of mourning supposed to be over? Is it over yet? WHEN?'
Wow, writing that down felt too raw. I actually don't want to find the answer to those questions, I should just let it be. I'll just dive head first into gym and my blog work for now.
I am still in love with the concept of Vans with Dresses and here is another perfect example of my obsession. Wearing a summer blue dress even in the midst of the rain I manage to salvage my feet with in closed sneakers. Maybe I'm just in denial of the weather or just living life on the edge, oooo. Whatever it is, I thank Pemba Boutique for providing me with that perfect summers dress to dance in the rain on those rare 'easy' days.