Wearing: Paint It Red Drive On Shorts thanks to Zoie; Ringo (Marble Grey) Sunglasses from Royal Aquamarine; Meche Voyager Ring and Infinite Loop Necklace thanks to Meche Jewellery; Princess Polly 'Almost Famous' Cardigan; New Look Silk Top; Jeffrey Campbell Oil Slick Solitaire Heels via Nasty Gal; Illamasqua 'Ignite' Lipstick
This week I started training for my 3rd game for my part-time croupier job here in Sydney. It's an 8 day training course and we have to do daily tests and assessments and study at home and practice at any given chance to perfect the dealing technique. As a result I really am not feeling my prettiest or the most excited in my life. In fact I'm stressed, frustrated and pre-occupied.
Study and training does not make me feel attractive (and its a skill I mentally locked away when I finished my Fashion Design course more than 5 years ago). So come the weekend I hope I can finally dress the way I want to dress and feel fricking sexy again.
I can safely say that being a croupier is just what I do but it's not who or what I am. But, at the same time I don't want to fail at getting my third game. So I'm planning to sacrifice these next 8 days - my sleep, my groomed hair, my TV, gaming and reading, my precise make-up and good food for that extra game. I will not enjoy the journey but I will certainly enjoy the destination.
And at that destination I plan to be wild and free again, partying it up and being cheeky and full of glee once again. Hell Yeah, drinks all round. I'm so craving that different kind of buzz.. the kind that is sexy and brimming with a quiet confidence.
That's how I felt just days earlier when I wore the perfect sex-kitten combination - sleek Royal Aquamarine sunglasses, Zoie's Paint It Red Shorts and Meche Jewellery. And all in striking black.
Yes, I will be craving that destination at the end of my 8 days and I will definitely dig up this outfit just to chase that itching buzz again.