Introducing: My new Chocolate Brown blunt hair with Bangs (coloured by Illusions Hairdressers, Wetherill Park)
Wearing: Maiden Love Shorts (thanks to Maiden Love); Coussinet Spire Necklace (thanks to Coussinet); H&M Parker; Cali & Cale Wedges (c/o Undergroup Showroom)
Although I've already got a couple of photos up of my new Chocolate Brown hair (note the very blunt cut) on the blog, I realised I haven't introduced it formally to my readers.
After a year and a half of Balayage hair, I decided, after a few months of no maintenance and touch ups that my blonde hair was starting to look ratty. Split ends started to appear half way down my hair, my ends were dry, my blonde hair was untoned. And to be honest - my hair can sometimes reflect my life and where it was going at that moment; I didn't maintain my life so I didn't maintain my hair.
And I've had some drastic changes to my life - people coming and going; my friend getting married, my reflection of my hopes of getting married surfaced, my heart being put down on the chopping board to be exposed etc etc has led me to just start a new Hair Chapter in my life. Sounds so corny but its true.
And girls always need new Hair Chapters to represent a new direction or fresh start. So I went down to Illusions and dyed my balayage to a rich Chocolate Brown (I stressed no reds or warm browns, I wanted a 'cooler' brown), widened my bangs/fringe and cut about 7CM off my length to get a blunt look at the ends.
Some people say I look younger, some people say I look more mature. I did it to refresh myself and my life. My girlfriends know how I feel - my close friend dyed her hair to mark her moving away to Korea and starting hew new job. My other friend always changes his hair for job interviews. I have another one who cut off most of her hair when she and her boyfriend broke up. So this is definitely not an unfamiliar concept for girls and boys.
So on all these notes, I want to stress that although I have been sad and painfully honest and looking suicidal in my last posts... that in truth, I am much happier now. So much happier. I found that expressing my sadness through my blogposts, ironically, made me not want to cry in real life. I haven't cried. I felt weird because I usually spend my nights doing just that.
My close friend (bless her) has tried to let me to cry, has encouraged it, has endorsed it; but my body just doesn't want to. Maybe it's a sign that I'm stronger than I think and that maybe I've just matured. Or maybe I just be crazy and have been bottling it up and soon explode one day. But we shall see what happens in the month of May. It isn't over yet....