Wearing: Asos Army Jacket; Paper Scissors dress; Boston Babe Shoes c/o Flaunt PR Marketing; Disney Watch thanks to Disney; Illamasqua 'Ignite' Lipstick
I'm 25, and when I was younger, I imagined that I would already be married. I thought by now I could control my feelings and emotions and that life is meant to be one 'happily-ever-after' script. Now I know - life is sometimes meant to be winged.
Like for example - I just let my emotions take over me yesterday. I sort of indulged in letting people know how I felt (I felt hurt, frustrated or angry with a couple of my friends). It feels good once you're doing it, then you sort of feel shit because you realise you made the other person feel bad. Then you go into self-pity or escapee-mode. I spent yesterday building up the courage to confront my friends, then a few minutes being angry, then suddenly regret, then a 'I-hate-myself' moment, then you get angry at yourself for letting your anger take over you. I then escaped my life for an hour by indulging in some fun. I felt better, yet still needing to spend time making it up to my friends.
What a roller-coaster day. I definitely winged it, and it sort of sucked. But now that it's over, I can concentrate on this fact: I'm 25, technically an adult, but sometimes don't feel like one. I will always have lessons to learn and have up & down days. At 25, I am still an adult trainee....